I was dilapidated, but still backstabbed in bitterness Though to had vanquished the disdain of living I was assured I had overcome scorchful misery But none ever really ceased, it compelled me in deceit Lured me in existential anfractuosity Emaciated the bareness of my will Now I stare, enthralled by ravenous choirs of self-deprivation Suffering the reminiscence of past injuries, or yet to come For time has vanished, as well as love, here, in this (my) Necrodome All that is left belches of apathy Surrounding humans sometime befall to this aura Intrigued by what seems grimly unattainable Secretly wondering what is that chokes light But there is no pride, for I'm sadness in its purest form Even in my brightest effulgence, I was admonished By mutters of purity, who've pierced my Armour of understandings Oh, I begged for recrudescence, in this life, morose Muted and blinded by darkness, which aggrieves me For none has tasted the pernicious obscurity, as I did, the conceited vengeance We all sought, for it has dissipated in forgiveness Tarnished grandeur I desecrate, from my fathomless scorn I was given birth remorsefully in this antithetical reality Surrounded by worthless contorted visages Who seeks affability and compassion, through my depths Who exist to justify my hatred, to cripple my dreams Wounded shapes averting their gaze, furthermore from truth Gagging in beatific haze, as their insignificance suppurates: But who is skimming retribution? Me? Who's secluded in this cold realm, of creeping calmness? Or the ones masked behind dead lights of fulfillment? I drift away in melancholy, passing by glancing hopes Haunted by macabre flaring disgust Where fragments of idle moments, are befouled with casual anguishes Enticed by dying essence, of spectral lurkers Feeling the liquidity of a soul unrested

Wicked mental distortion deciphered... life Leaving scars bare open, repulsed in my own world Frostsplinters, jabbing and piercing my inside; bleeding to death Withered and drowned, I decayed maculated in misery Too harsh and unbearable, crushing my feeble hopes I sanked at heart of an ocean of chagrin... My heart and sanity torn and raped by nightshadows Vomiting my soul, as evil and malady overwhelms Fading silently, cherished by hymnodies of pure discord Sorrowinds of corrosive truthfulness parted my entity Forever entrapped in a world of tormented toughs and plagued perceptions Life crumbles in dust before my sight, so futile The world within chaotic non sense, all too painful I'm a link between all pains , a scapegoat to pure terror Inverted emotions redirected toward my grotesque existence I'm dying, mourning the remnants of essence remaining Drained and left rotting, merging with filth of creation Carved in cruellest disdain, an everflowing burning pain... Yearning the scythe of engrieved melancholia to reap and fulfill my extinction Grasped and enfrosted by emotions too powerful, darker than darkness Struggling unheard beneath opposed reality, exiled from my sorrowfields Bewildered and confused within confusion, extolled in neverwhere I cannot contain no longer, the numbness of my will Regurgitated in an unbearable purgatory of never ending sadness

I witnessed blissful revelations, and succumbed in desolation Each days empowered by nightmarish deceptions Seeking retribution in the lowest of lifeform Breathing hazardous clouds of decrepitude Oh it hurts, those piercing adumbrations of shadowrealms Plunged my conceptions in total disharmony I've seen brighter days... Whispers of inverted splendor Ttearing my sanity apart Choked cruelly and tortured by forlorn purity Scarred and lacerated Weaping my life, head's down Violated by darkness of my thoughts, left unsane Bleeding the pain of thousand sins, I'm drowning... Bestruck by fear of what grasped my essence Showed me shades of all illusions Cloaked and embraced by obscurity unbearable Clutching hands of those who fell by weakness Feeding on life still warm of flesh surrounding me Funeral deviance sickening my existence Staggering in corruption Blood and tears maculated deep within Roaming in hypnotic, cadaverous loneliness Cycle of inexistence Imploded and disrupted my conscience Ashamed and repulsed by my own need That cannot be appeased nor explained anyhow I've transcended death and reality... Enfrosted and strangled in haze I was reborn in repugnance and without compassion Still ablaze by mortal failure ,I drifted Toward realms of chaotic prosperity Benighted and supreme Backstabbed in hateful disdain, is how love embraced me So cold are those shivers of unearthly anguishes Driving my mind in repulsive, passionless disgust Devoided of any life, I lay there drowning in my own misery Death cleansed somehow, it adorned the chaos

I grasped blindly at feverish absolution Cut and opened by razors of pure unbearable chaos This world seems so obsolete now , my own catafalque Guided by whispers of insanity , murmuring truth Beyond all possible reason , my soul is replenished By hate and misery , ravished in exquisite chagrin Mesmerized by shivers of enfrosted purity My conceptions drowned in instincts of extinction Caressed by winds of darkened embrace Bathing in misery, gagging to breath My hearth tormented by lack of life Unbalanced by passion This love abloomed once Left scars of undescribable sufferance Bearing disgusting needs Encrafted un desillusive darkness Stench of martyrize sanctity Emanates in merciless cruelty Ravaged by warlust, seeking the source of this empowerment Craving all that is imperceptible, so silently flows my pain Daggers of misery have slaughtered my halcyons I've withdrawn in a coffin of agonizing tormentations I'm bleeding the blood of the accused, poisoning all who feared Those nightmarish adumbrations who've torn my sanity Which plague my purest convictions Beauty reflects my disdain Deep-rooted in doubtful distrus Fading in a painful soliloquy Waves of anguish sprawling and spreading through my veins So cold and fragile lies my memories Expelled from this path of cursed misanthropy Shivers of terrorized melancholia numbed my soul Embedded in a world unseen , sprawled by darkness Withering as a fallen leaf, drained of all life I died in my mind... Inhabited by shrieks of pure insanity Leaving my spirit in ghostly haze Those undescribable laughter whispered within my essence Tearing my conceptions in futile wreckage of Eden Grasped my inside to powerfully Clawing on life still remaining What abloomed and adorned , shall wither and decay My essence shall never flourish again Llife shall'nt be granted...(Again?)

I was plunged once again in cruellest treachery Mindtorned as those whispers of forthcoming sufferance Have pierced the silence , as well as my putrid soul The soul is leaking painfully , filling the remnants in grief Corrupted and entangled ,drifting abroad the shallow graves So silent and imperceptible are my only hopes Tired and overwhelmed by this never ending cycle To extinguish what once torn my existence Of futile deceptions generated by an envy of purity Infused in darkness , bearing pallid shades of gallows dementia Which cannot be attained here, which let me wrecked ashore Here , light and darkness have gone forever Always in the darkest corners of my ,mind , lies hope To lacerate the flesh , till the life pours in nothingness To leek in purest despair , expelling life forever To break the cycle once , to feel extasy one last time... As I drown in this final soliloquy , knives are buried within flesh Blood splashes , staining beauty in everlasting misery Pale , vivid disdain bestruck and grasped my hearth Eviscerated hopes and my will to purify Without salvation , I awaken , drowned and strangled by melancholia Tore and choked by coldness of life , ashamed and silent The world around me , so dark and fragile Dying , raped and slaughtered by my lesserlife Cursing this flesh entangling my true nature , At last I enter my domain , where demons have been slaughtered Where angels have lost the warmth of life , pallid and darkened Where all is pure , covered by a fog of wintry grey And bleeding I'll meet those who've torn my conceptions Who've shown me life , entrapped in a cage of despaired emptiness For I'm draped in shades of forlorn essence Muted and empowered by an enraged howling beast within I became a fallen one , I plunged in the abomination Silence hovered , pierced sometimes with shrieks I arose soaked in filth , of my own mediocrity Blinding my obedience and sickening all that is unpure Wielding wisdom unrestrainable , forsaken my own light All that I touch , lays lifeless in putrid failure Scorched by chagrin of a dying mind , I do not belong here... Forsaken was my existence , Death mocked my weakness Agonizing in inextinguishable raping of my conceptions For this sufferance was above the extinction of flesh I'm a fallen one , enemy to all...) But those thoughts vanishes with hopes , as whispers change Crawling in a landscape of ashes and failures To harsh revelations , where the pain is unbearable Embedded in a purity so harsh , my hate is unbearable Laying numbed , unable to react , as my soul shrieks Damned within cursed mesmerizing non-sense As it pleads not to die , cannot end my own nightmare Trying in vain to sooth the sufferance in grotesque futility And again I reenter the cycle , as death mocks me Life has denied me , obscurity has drained my will For my weakness , but I laugh back , for my strength Pain as opened me her arms for the last time To not succumb in what all engrieved souls did To fall at heart of all I fought for , in Death I may find soothness , but never peace of mind For the discord engraved is too present and unbearable And perhaps Death disguised as those whispers Knowing my weakness , is trying to end my life Pain shall forever flow within my essence.